It took me about a year of not being motivated by anything to come to the realization that I have now. While I was still in a rut, playing music wasn’t fun anymore, but I was still trying to latch onto it. The thing was, I wanted to like playing, but nothing was influencing me to actually enjoy it. What I should have focused on was my mindset at the time. I quickly realized I thought I wouldn’t be that great at what I do and it killed my motivation.
It was really hard to even find 5 minutes to practice on a good day. So, in order to combat this, I decided that my goal was to be the best musician in the world. I knew that I would probably never reach this point. The important thing is that I’ll have this goal forever. Never being able to achieve it makes me want to be the closest thing to it. You don’t have to be perfect. Be the next best thing.