Having impossible goals (VIDEO)


It took me about a year of not being motivated by anything to come to the realization that I have now. While I was still in a rut, playing music wasn’t fun anymore, but I was still trying to latch onto it. The thing was, I wanted to like playing, but nothing was influencing me to actually enjoy it. What I should have focused on was my mindset at the time. I quickly realized I thought I wouldn’t be that great at what I do and it killed my motivation.

It was really hard to even find 5 minutes to practice on a good day. So, in order to combat this, I decided that my goal was to be the best musician in the world. I knew that I would probably never reach this point. The important thing is that I’ll have this goal forever. Never being able to achieve it makes me want to be the closest thing to it. You don’t have to be perfect. Be the next best thing.

A Quiet Place Part II – Official Trailer

Watch the official trailer for A Quiet Place Part II. In theatres March 20. Following the deadly events at home, the Abbott family (Emily Blunt, Millicent Simmonds, Noah Jupe) must now face the terrors of the outside world as they continue their fight for survival in silence. Forced to venture into the unknown, they quickly realize that the creatures that hunt by sound are not the only threats that lurk beyond the sand path.

#AQuietPlace Part II




HEALTH: How making minor daily changes to nutrition, fitness, and sleep saved my life


A year ago today I was battling with extreme depression, anxiety, hopelessness, and addictions that came in many forms.

If you’re anything like most people, you’ve struggled with one or more of these in some form or another. This is part of the human experience that is meant to teach us but not meant for lifelong suffering.

I knew no one was going to come to save me but myself so in order to save myself I would have to make drastic in many areas of life.

Luckily, I had many years of studying fitness, nutrition and holistic ways to improve life; I just hadn’t been implementing them due to being at the lowest point in my life (mainly because of my dad being very sick with cancer and passing away from it).

I knew I had to start making good decisions not only for myself but for my family, so I’m going to share exactly how I did it. If it only helps one person out there it will be worth it.


  • Intermittent fasting (Great for better focus, less mental fog, and more energy)
  • Protein-rich foods first meal of the day (save carbs for later meals as carbs will cause you to crash early in the day)
  • Figure out what food intolerances I have to improve mental clarity and overall health.
  • Don’t eat close to bedtime.

Fitness/Holistic life Hacks

  • Daily calisthenics workout regiment.
  • Cold showers/Ice baths (helps with stress management, anti-inflammatory, and numerous other benefits)
  • Sauna/warm bath
  • Meditation
  • Wim Hoff method
  • Journaling, writing about things you are grateful for and things you want to get done throughout the day.


  • The Oura ring
  • Taping your mouth so you breathe out of your nose while asleep
  • No caffeine or stimulants after 2PM
  • Sleeping on the floor for deeper sleep and spinal realignment.
  • Cold shower before sleep (If you haven’t taken these before you can start with just ending your showers in cold)
  • Very dark bedroom


  • CBD for depression and anti-inflammatory (I prefer full spectrum)
  • Magnesium before bed
  • Vitamin D in the morning

Change takes time, and implementing these habits may seem difficult at first but if you only implement a couple of these daily habits each week you will look up a month from now and realize how drastically different your quality of life has improved. I’m going to try to make some more posts like this to go in more depth over each of the topics but for now, this is a general overview of some of the things that have saved my life.

Halfway through my first one night stand, i started to regret it (NSFW)


I’m 19 and I lost my virginity when I was 16. Been in 2 relationships and had 2 sex partners. Always wanted someone with my sex drive(it’s high), bigger than a 5-inch penis and someone who is big and masculine who would dominate me and make me feel like a woman.

So when my last relationship ended 6 months ago, I wanted to find someone to have fun with. I got a few dating apps and the game was on! So a few weeks in, I get in touch with 2 guys. It was a duo account and for me, it sounds awesome, exciting and scary.

A few weeks more and we meet for lunch. It was chill, fun and I was having loads of fun! Two big older guys, with experience, fit and the equipment was big they told me. I told them my story, what I wanted, why I wanted it and they were fine with me. I wanted it to go slow and to them to give me 100% attention and to fuck me in a few different positions.

The night came, I’ve talked to them and been with them a few times so I felt like I knew them.
So we all got nude, kissing, touching. they gave me oral, and one guy wanted to eat my ass. so I tried that too. Was actually decent.

So we started to fuck, one in doggy and the other I gave a blowjob. Here I started to feel bad. I felt like a slut, a bad one. It felt like my vagina was getting ruined and my mouth dirty. They where 7 and 7.5 inches with a good thick stick, so it was good. my body felt good, it gave me the feeling of getting fucked and I came two times. But the feeling was inside my head, stomach, and heart. I wanted to tell them its fine, I think I’m done. But me moaning and loving the dick made me not say it and just let them fuck me.

They both came inside me a few hours later, we talked and they left. Now I’m here with a terrible feeling inside me and a vagina that wants more. I’m torn and I’m not sure what I want or to think. I don’t think ONS is for me, but the sex was for me. I can’t wash the dirt off me yet I want to text them.

is it just me? yes, it is, but will it get better? is it always this hard the first time? or is ONS just not for me and long term relationships is? I know I want to explore, but I don’t? feels like I don’t know myself.

Thanks for listening

When Photoshop becomes the new norm but admitting to it becomes taboo


I saw a post last night and thought it looked a bit off.

The OP claims it was captured through focus stacking and denies he added the lightning through photoshop. On Instagram, he actually claimed it was a single exposure.

After noticing a very similar shot on his [Instagram] I realized the lower-left corner of the photo was near identical but with no lightning. I stuck them side by side here. It’s clear to see that the lighting of the sky/clouds is near identical in these two separate shots, which is evidence that no lightning struck in the first one.

I’m sick and tired of this kind of behavior in photography. The same bullshit Peter Lik pulls.

Using photoshop to add elements to your shots to make them more interesting is fine, but I think there should always be honest about it. Lying about your work only takes away from the photographers who don’t do it the lazy way, but instead using painstaking, time-consuming methods to capture the real moment.

In all honesty, the general public doesn’t give a shit if it’s photoshop or not, so you will still get all the shares, likes, attention, etc you desire, but you’re not being dishonest and faking the skills that someone else has worked hard to achieve.

Sugar addiction is like the hot bad lover that you know is bad for you but you keep going back (VIDEO)


Sugar to me is like the hot bad ex that you know is bad for you but you keep going back for more because it’s delicious. I could eat 3 candy bars in 30 minutes and still want more. But enough is enough! I’m not falling into the sugary trap again. I’ve done a lot of research about the negative effects sugar has on you so I want to break up with this habit for good. I’m an all or nothing gal and is that toxic? Debatable. But I’m putting this out in the universe and am doing this! Goodbye processed sugar and addiction, you won’t be missed.

I’m on day 2 and all I wanted today was a Reece’s but I stood my ground and ate an apple with peanut butter instead.

eBay is banning sellers for damaged shipping boxes


So I came into a big lot of kids probiotics, sealed and unexpired. They expire in January and I started selling them in November. Because they’re so close dated I’ve been selling them well below retail, which is around 2 boxes for the retail price of 1. I was originally selling them in a lot of 4 for the price of 1.5, but that listing was quickly taken down because the eBay prescription drug policy does not allow damaged boxes.

Ok, fine I guess, but I don’t consider one creased corner of 1 box to be that damaged. I had other pictures of the lot number and expiration that back up that these did not crush or ripped boxes and also not expired, maybe just some shelf wear. I asked eBay for a business facebook page for advice where the guy told me they were indeed taken down for damage and not to relist. It’s clear if the box even has normal shelf wear, you can’t list it? Ok.

I got these cheap enough that I culled every single box that was not shelf perfect and relisted in 2 packs at a higher price. Nope, taken down again after selling one and this time a 3-day selling restriction came with it, which means my items will not show up in the search for 3 days. Here are my “damaged” boxes.

What irritates me is most people selling them are hiding behind a stock photo anyway so why am I being targeted? You can’t prove they’re NOT selling crushed boxes so why even allow stock photos? I can only think Culturelle themselves or a competitor doesn’t like me selling them so cheaply. It’s cool they can just nuke you for “damaged boxes” even when they look no more damaged then retail boxes. So I guess the point of this rant is has anyone ever had this happen them and also a warning to stay away from medications, even nonprescription stuff. Someone will find a way to slap you down.

How bad would SpaceX’s Starlink constellation with 42k+ satellites be in terms of space junk and affecting astronomical observations?


To put it simply: Every professional astronomical society has statements of varying levels of condemnation on Starlink. Nearly everyone I know that does ground-based astronomy (and even a couple of astrophotographers) think the statements aren’t strong enough and want the project stopped dead/large tax placed on these swarms.

Once fully implemented, there’s essentially a 100% chance of satellites turning up in long exposures and it will be tons of added work trying to remove them (and realistically, the output will drop drastically). Optically, it’s possible to get around them (but not in the current Starlink plan) with more work/resources than professional astronomers have, but those working in non-visible light wavelengths are not so lucky. Radio astronomy will be dead as a field, SETI project dead, infrared will be a mess, exoplanet-hunting dead, asteroid detection dead.

Basically, we will be forced to use space telescopes only… Of which there are very few and the competitiveness of proposals will be through the roof. Given the high priority of space-based telescopes, there aren’t many “exploratory” type niche projects that can be carried out on low-interest targets, so we’ll be really limited about what we’re allowed to study as well. Considering most of us already work on shoestring budgets, I expect to see many people leaving the field to go become “data scientists” for consulting firms.

Don’t believe the SpaceX press releases, real astronomers are horrified at what this means for our research.